Dear blog,
Winter is coming and it's getting colder. But the warm atmosphere still pinches my skin. Dang, just forget about the weather and atmosphere. Here now after a month I left this blog without any post, I am thinking of writing again. Even though this time could be the busiest time of my life.
I was really irritated with this one person who I never met before or even talk to him. I hate someone who likes to humiliate and worst when he tries to humiliate me. I admit I'm not that good but please teach me how to be good rather than insulting me. Hell, I really hate that person. Hope that I won't ever meet him anywhere anytime. (never felt this hateful before)
Alrite yo, that's all I guess. Pretty tired. Maybe this winter will be the fertile blogging period for me. Not now with final exams approaching this mid december. But still not necessarily I will not post any blog. Bye, lujju jingga
Monday, November 24, 2008
Annoying Person
Monday, October 13, 2008
Today is a cold day
Dear blog,
Something makes me hard to stop smiling today. Sometimes I do laugh about it but it's actually nothing. Today is the coldest day of my life. Never been in this such condition before where the temperature is able to drop below 10c. I was shivering the whole morning.
Right after class, I watch Desperate Housewives and Ugly Betty episode 3. I kinda like the third episode of Ugly Betty because it is like a story telling in a funny way (Betty's perspective). Surprisingly, Daniel's son is not his but he's Alexis son (before she turn into a woman). Wow, that's scary. For Desperate Housewives, there's nothing complicated but I felt pity towards Gabi. Her life turned 180 and it's not getting any better.
But the thing that makes me blown away and really surprised is the Britney's new song. She's amazing. Her video is super sexy (hei I'm above 18 now). Her song is super sarcastic. I saw this one comment on Youtube which talking about the song's background. That person claimed the song is dedicated to her ex husband (you guys know who). Try listen to the song very carefully because it may not be easy to catch the words she say (especially Malay boy like me). Don't bother with the video because you won't be able to focus on the lyrics (so sure bout that). Well, I love her new song and for me, it's a surprising comeback. You guys should listen to her song and watch the video. The brief acting is realistic... (speechless)
Friday, October 10, 2008
I Watch This Movie!
Dear blog,
I'm actually not in the mood to write anything tonight because it's suppose to be a movie night for me but this one movie moved me to write something. I watched this movie accidently when I searched a video in Veoh and suddenly one interesting title appeared. It was Soldier's Girl. But first don't misjudge me ok, because I just love to watch any good movies.
It's about a new soldier met a girl (she's a shemale) at a transgender revue. The movie is so touching and sad in the end. You guys should watch this movie. Troy Garity played as the soldier and Lee Pace played as the transgender. I wasn't realise that he is the guy from Pushing Daisies. His acting is so incredible and his portrayal as a shemale is brilliant. I just could not believe that because she was so pretty except for the masculine body type. (spoiler) In the end, the soldier was killed by his colleague because of...hmm ( I can't remember but it's a good movie). Eventually, it shows that love is blind. When there's a love chemistry, anything can happen even if it's going to be strange and complicated.
My habit, if I like something I will find everything related to that thing. I browsed the internet and tried to search anything related to that movie. Surprisingly, the movie is actually based on a true story which is about the relationship between Barry Winchell (he was a straight guy) and Calpernia Addams and the events that led up to Barry's murder by fellow soldiers. This tragedy caught nationwide intention especially to the military and LGBT societies in USA.' As reported in a 1999 New York Times article entitled "An Inconvenient Woman," some groups attempted to portray their relationship as "homosexual" to challenge the military's Don't ask, don't tell policy' (cited from wikipedia). Surprisingly, Calpernia Addams was a former navy.
For me, being open minded is important in this contemporary world.Each and everyone of us have the right towards equality as human being. What happen if that kind of thing happen to us? It's going to be really hard for us too. So be positive and don't blame them. Enjoy the movie!
while below is him in Pushing Daisies.
He's a really good actor.
Troy Garitti as BarrieWinchell.
I just can't believe he could fall
in love with a transgender
TV Shows Again and Again
Dear blog,
It's hard for me to manage time here. As the TV shows season premier mostly happen this fall, I hardly resist the temptation of watching them.
My favorite shows:
1. America's Next Top Model
2. Heroes
3. Prison Break
4. Ugly Betty
5. Desperate Housewives
6. Gossip Girl
7. Dirty Sexy Money
How to study and follow those shows at the same time?
My problem is, I am easily addicted to TV shows and get connected emotionally with the stories and the character. As example in Heroes, I am really pissed when stupid Hiro opened his dad's security box and someone steal the formula consequently. And another stupid fellow (peter Patrelli) was warned by Sylar not to get his power which cause the hunger. In the end, he took that power and returned to present world after he killed Nathan and got mad at Sylar. Shame of him. I never like his character. And Hayden is getting chubbier episode by episode. And with more characters in that series, I just simply confused sometimes. (I'm not that kind of person who can concentrate on one thing)
I love Gossip Girl and I love when Serena got her bitchiness back. And I love her husky voice and I love Blair too but I hate Dan. I think Chuck is much better than him.
OMG, Prison Break makes me nervous all the time. That's why I like that series especially when Sara returned to the cast. It was kinda boring in the third season without her.
I hope that season 5 will not be the last season for Desperate Housewives. I feel like one of the neighbour in Wisteria Lane when I watch that drama. If it's going to be the last one, I'll miss them so much especially Gabriel. She's so cute. Lynette too.
I hope you guys are also a drama series addict like me. We can be a good friends you know! Not mention the Korean and Japanese drama here.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
TV Shows
Dear blog,
I am so pissed today with one of my favourite TV show. i'm not gonna hide anymore and I proudly declare that I love to watch ANTM since cycle 1. But as the cycles goes on I cannot stand with the surprises anymore.
The show is not about looking for next top model anymore but looking for next top personality. Maybe Tyra should change the title to America's Next Top Personality. The girl who has the most potential will be eliminated or at least be at the final but don't win the title. It's frustrating because in the end the girl who wins was the girl who is not consistent and to be claimed as having personality that inspired people. (what Tyra said to Sheena and I don't inspired by her at all. I got annoyed by her). Why? So there's no point I'm watching the show anymore but I'm simply addicted to it. It's been 11 cycles and it's going to be hard for me to stop watching it.
This is the list of the winners:
Cycle 1: Adrianne
Cycle 2: Yoanna
Cycle 3: Eva
Cycle 4: Naima
Cycle 5: Nicole
Cycle 6: Danielle
Cycle 7: Caridee
Cycle 8: Jaslene
Cycle 9: Saleisha
Cycle 10: Whitney
Cycle 11: Sheena ( I'm pretty sure she'll win because she's the only Asian there. and I'll be the
first one to protest)
and her Starting from cycle 8, I really disappointed with the chosen winner. Jaslene? What the hell. She looks like scrawny drag queen. Renee should win after all. Cycle 9, was the most hateful cycle. I hate Saleisha's hypocrite bubbly personality. Poor Jenah, she had been consistent and caught hi fashion photos. Tyra was looking for her personality and she finally found that in the final 3 but still she got eliminated. I hate cycle 9. For cycle 10, I believe that Tyra wanted to change the modeling industry but it's not fair to Anya. She had been consistent and never be in the bottom 2 ( i guess) but in the end, Whitney was chosen. And now the cycle 11, just because of one posy photo, Lauren Brie got eliminated. She took the most powerful photos at the begining and Tyra claimed that her lack of personality is the reason why she left. WTH. I hate it.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Playing with Emotions
Dear blog,
Welcome back to myself. I know it's going to be hard for me to write anything here though I love writing so much. Maybe because bunch of assignments that I need to deal with, I feel like writing ( i mean typing) some extra stuff here will be a complete waste of time. However, it came to my mind last night about this second thought. I should write something here...
And it started when I was here in United States about a month ago. I felt so lonely and miserable but it's ok. I can deal with it because I learn so much about life in KYUEM. My dear and 'lovely' college. It's going to be hard for a few days I guess, and it's true. I could handle myself in a week. Life here is not that bad and I just need to strengthen my emotion. That's all. Unfortunately, along the positive thought and try to act like 'nothing happen' behaviour, this parasite of thought struck my mind exactly after a month and it's getting worse day by day. (to be exact until now)
Everyday and every night when everything related to class is settled, I will stay in my room. Doing things by myself and keep talking to myself ( i mean inside my mind. i'm not crazy) is really frustrating. Even though the freedom is lovely but it's killing me. I do watch my favorite drama and TV shows in internet and I do have fun watching them. I do some of my private stuff privately with no interruption and I do enjoy it. But there's something that makes me feel so empty. I figured it out last night and it turns out to be loneliness. I have live alone in my room wasting most of the quality times doing nothing. So I cook, sing, dance and etc just to fill this side of me. But the thing that i need most is friend. A true friend. I believe that every human being will have different approach towards certain people. People's behaviour will change when they meet someone. As example if he meets his good friends, he will be so energetic. If he meets his girlfriend, he will be like the last man in the world. So human is like a chameleon. They do camouflage their behaviour.
Just like me, I do have friends here but they are not the one that I think will accept the true me. All this while, I'm being a stranger to myself. I don't have the chance to be myself. Is this called hipocrite? I think so. At least in Malaysia, if I'm alone or no one arounds me, I can call my best friends and we'll have a great time. But now, it's just me. I hope for the coming 4 years, everything will be fine and at least I can control my emotion and stay sane. I really miss my friends and my homeland. And one positive thing about living solitarily, I learn to be so analytical. Every small parts regarding feelings and emotions, I will try to interpret it myself. What a life.
Till then. c ya! Take care. XOXO. Lujju Jingga